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How We've Changed

by Andy Ulseth

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1.
I’m taking my time putting my head to sleep while the engines purr and the sirens bleed and I breath it in to feed my longing lungs So I press my ear against the screen where the wind is cool, from where poets leap to the icy, concrete riverbed below And passed the sounds of squeaking wheels and rolling trash and orange peels are the tones that only lonely travelers know. The highways, that vibrate and call on us to see the byways that time’s waved for me If you cock your head to listen to the air like a distant waning summer’s fair as it stretches out from sea to silver sea Oh, The humming of the thoroughfares Are bassiest notes that are barely there How they fill out all of the low end in between The roads are bowed like old violas crying in the concert halls of cities who don’t recognize their moans. And chorded at the junction tangles harmonies and bell-like jangles all as one and peaceful in their tone. These highways, they vibrate and need for our four wheels The byway’s decay was made for me. I’m taking my time putting my head to sleep while the engines purr and the sirens bleed and I breath it in to feed my longing lungs
2.
We were born at the foot Of the museum ruins. With our feet Inches deep In the cinder. I propose unlike those, In the antique cartoons, We were flawed in unusual ways Oh How We’ve Changed Of the marble leaf, and ivory trees Of the backyard that we’d made Oh How We’d Say, “There is nothing on this earth too great to give away.” We’d employ all the loons At the Marquette Hotel To remark on the starkness and decline Of the neighborhood lawns and the smokey pastels that were once so vividly green Oh what it means, To be witness to the thriftlessness of irony. High from my balcony, as we blow a smoke ring, circling the city scene. And out in the rain, The boulevards and city streets Still cut to me. Oh how we’d say, “There is nothing on this earth too great to give away.” We’d succumb to the popular tune of the day, And we quietly lay in the embers Of the roadways that hum, and the monuments made Out of cardboard and paper mache. Oh How We’ve Changed Oh How We’ve Changed
3.
All At Once 03:15
Orono. How much to get to go? Who do I see? Who can tell me what I’m missing? Indigo, Cardinal and navy blue I am in debt to you. Son of a peddler from Mission. All at once I’m afraid of myself All at once I am me Peppercorn, Knees in your jeans are worn, Almost all gray, graced with your lack of ambition Motorcade, Head of the corn parade August thru May The things you can do for attention Every month is a day in itself, Surely some disagree All at once I’m afraid of myself All at once I am me Nearly drown, Named for an east coast town miles to the sea Titled upon its inception As it seems, I often think of these Keys on a ring Kept in a drawer in the kitchen Midnight sun, as the day glows and swells All at once from the east All at once I’m afraid of myself All at once I am me Midnight sun, as the day glows and swells All at once from the east All at once I am sure of myself All at once I am me
4.
Citrus Smell, The Walnut shell And how you were Pissed off and listless this time They say everyone longed for a Saturday Everyone longs for a try We were all fragrant and gasoline Cratered as skin of a lime Prepped for a pageant at 17 Pansy-ass need not apply Dontcha know- we’re always faking it? We’ve all got something to hide. And everything, and all how it’s breaking, But everyone wants just to shine And hold out for something divine. Slipped on the beads of your rosary Wanted to see how they glow You always pray for a rainy day And I always plan for the snow. Kept on the drawer in your vanity Gifted upon your first night You’re always speaking in homily While I’m just along for the ride Dontcha know- everyone’s faking it? Watching it all from the sides. And everything, all how it’s made up by some delicate pre-design As if it were something divine. (How long?) Longer than I had intended to. (How long?) Longer than I had intended to. (How long?) Longer than I had intended to sing. Dontcha know- everything’s fake and it’s Watering down the brine. And all that I’ve learned from mistakes is what’s cripplingly hard to define As if it were all by design. Saw you out singing at Christmas time, Voices all gathered below Altos and Tenors, all unrefined But you were the only soprano.
5.
In a pinch, you can call on your family Call in the cavalry Pull down the shades Needing rest, You could dust off your Calloways In mercury’s retrograde August thru may Like a butter knife, falling through margarine Like a fruit fly that’s caught in some glue Every postcard is written by someone Someone longing that you were there too On a weekday, you’re struck by my vanity Locked in the pattern that heartache accrues We were left on a doorstep to fend it off, Arching and bending And living up to Like a laundry line, left out and weathered Like a chicken that’s sent off to stew Like a blister, created by friction of Someone longing that you were there too Like a butter knife, falling through margarine Like a fruit fly that’s caught in some glue Every postcard is written by someone Someone longing that you were there too Like a laundry line, left out and weathered Like a chicken that’s sent off to stew Like a blister, created by friction of Someone longing that you were there too
6.
I’m chewing on my inhaler Everybody pretends their hypnotized. When everyone is a stranger, Every conversation is improvised. I’ve been noticing rainfall, I’ve been coasting on winds of maritime. When everyone is a sailor, Everybody wants to be canonized. Apropo, on Monday, Mid-Afternoon I’m waiting for you. Ice and snow, Under identical moons, I’m waiting for you. Everyone is a failure, Everybody fails. I’ve been drinking the water. I’ve been acting out songs in pantomime, I’m in love with my jailor. I’ve been making the most of outdoor time. I’ve been mixing my pantones. I’ve been cleaning my brush in turpentine. When everyone is a painter, Everybody wants to be portatized. Apropo, on Monday, Mid-Afternoon I’m waiting for you. Ice and snow, Under identical moons, I’m waiting for you. Everyone is a failure, Everybody fails.
7.
Calliope 02:18
Voice like the one from Calliope, And this, at the risk of your ire. But I’ve always been one for poetry I’ve always been one for fire And though I stopped biting my nails Cuz I felt shame at how it made me look It wasn’t you who made me feel that grief Oh yeah, I stopped biting my nails Cuz I was scared of how it made me look Oh Molly, how you are the one for me. Shaped as the freshly-thrown pottery I need you to know why I kneel A victor in some cosmic lottery A champion at some massive wheel And when I’m sick as hell, the morning bell, You always hate to wake me up It’s always you who kisses me each day And when I fell, yes I could tell that you Would always shake me up How Molly, it’s you- you’re the one for me. Oh Molly, yes you. You’re the one.
8.
Arbor Day 04:36
Oh Irony, Sat aside the parkway in our dungarees, With rolled up sleeves The soggy leaves, Collect upon the walkways and sidestreets On Arbor Day, Moss upon the dewey arch in full display The cracks were made From slow decay The features on the facing have all come to fade To fade Oh Mystery, We you carved this way? Oh Figurine, Cut from the wood of an evergreen tree Bugle Call, Light our cigarettes at the retaining wall The bathroom stall, The marquee crawl, Reminds us not to let life get a way On Lowry Hill, Looked upon the wet ground From your window sill, The air was still, And how fulfilled, You felt about the fog that fell around Oh Mystery, Were you carved this way? Oh Figurine, Cut from the wood of an evergreen tree Oh Mystery, Were you carved this way? Oh Figurine, Cut from the wood of an evergreen tree
9.
Velveteen 03:46
Hold you close, My velveteen. I’ve been dying to know you. In the endless space between, I’ll crawl and claw the distance to your view. Outstretched as a rubber band. Caught up in the milieu, Blisters on my battered hands, The sun upon the rooftop, Coming through. But I am not a fighter, I am no one’s fool, The road’s a little bit brighter When I’m sharing it with you. Peel back all’ve your skin my dear, Find what beats inside you, Let the tones flow through your ears And resonate your pillowed pate, renewed. I’m a wintery ghost, I fear But I can smell the springtime, Something sweet that’s coming near, To penetrate my snowy state of mind. But I am not a fighter, I am no one’s fool. The load’s a little bit lighter When I’m sharing it with you. Lay you down, oh velveteen. I can hear the moonlight. Perfume from the foam-topped seas. To look upon, behind your sleeping eyes.
10.
I thought I heard you sing I thought I heard you breathing they never said a thing But I could stand to reason Smoke from the stacks, intervening Step on the cracks, as we’re leaving All I ever wanted to be That which yields no guarantees I get lost in myself A wrinkle on the breeze The changing of seasons The rent was overdue Our bank accounts were freezing Wind at our backs, as we’re fleeing A note with a tack, as we’re leaving All we ever thought we would be Was lost in a storm-driven sea I get lost in myself You got your space And got me to believe in The futile chase The stoning of St. Stephen All that we had hoped we would be Now flushed in a shivering stream I get lost in myself

about

"How We've Changed" was primarily written in the spring of 2018, and and recorded in the late winter and spring of 2019. Some of the songs have roots as far back as 2011 (I still have clumsy voice memos on my phone of "Velveteen" and "Highways That Vibrate" from back then).

The post-production was done throughout the summer, fall, winter of 2019, and completed around March of 2020. A time when being excited about anything felt inappropriate. I shelved the album in hopes that there'd come a day where it felt okay to be celebratory.

Now, over 2 years later, I think that time has come. What's striking to me is that my album, which is based on themes of change, has become a deeper more profound personal statement to me since it's completion. I love that even **MY** understanding of it has evolved. How we've changed, indeed.

I was joined in making this album by a host of really wonderful, creative friends. Eric Carlson is a true ace and exceptional collaborator. He really made the whole thing pop. Molly Ulseth is my wife, and provides exceptionally sweet harmonies all throughout. Matt Schiebe recorded all of these drum parts in my spare bedroom in a single afternoon (!!!), Emily Mohrbacher (from the wonderful band, Val Son) added her buttery vocal textures on many of the songs. Green Bouzard lent her classically-trained string performances to a number of songs, and understood the vision from the get-go. Soren Tryggestad brought so many great brass ideas to the table that amounted to some of piece's most exciting and poignant moments. Bryan Isaacs is a lifelong friend who added an aesthetic panache that works perfectly in concert with the music. Bryn Harding, an old pal from college, was generous enough to let me use his painting for the cover art. I could go on about all of these people.

About that painting. Bryn has a series of paintings that feature construction cranes. I love the image of the crane looming in the background over a historic building. There are dark birds in the trees, and power lines stretching out overhead. It's a wonderful visual metaphor for how our world evolves, and how we're constantly picking up the pieces and trying to grow. I love it.

Speaking of which: These are songs of love, confusion, empathy, and evolution. I hope all of that comes across to you, and perhaps you'll even find yourself laughing at parts.

It feels good to finally be able to float these songs off on a raft to the center of a lake. The raft made of twigs and twine, gently creaks and moans as its distance grows from the shore. I pull an arrow from my quiver, light its end with a burning torch, thread the string through its slot, pull it back, aim, and launch the flaming arrow onto the raft as it floats away. I watch as the raft and the songs become engulfed in a white and blue dancing flame, I am bitterly and sweetly reminded of the time where they all only existed in my head.

Now, out of my hands, they take light and combust. This is not a funerary commemoration, but one of joy, hope, and change.

Andy Ulseth, 2022.

credits

released June 24, 2022

Andy Ulseth - Vocals, Guitars, Bass, Keys
Matthew Schiebe - Drums
Molly Ulseth - Vocals
Eric Carlson - Guitar
Emily Mohrbacher - Vocals
Green Bouzard - Violin
Soren Tryggestad - Trumpet


Construction Crane 1, Oil on Canvas, 2019 used with permission by Bryn Harding

Text and Layout Design by Bryan Isaacs
Recorded by Andy Ulseth
Mixed and mastered by Eric Carlson

For Molly and Robin.

Reverse Alphabetical, 2022.

All Songs by Andy Ulseth. Northern Gold Publishing (BMI) - All Rights Reserved 2022

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Andy Ulseth Minneapolis, Minnesota

Andy Ulseth is a craftsman songwriter from Minnesota. A state known for brutal winters, and liberal politics. His folk songs highlight the vivid and visceral minutiae of the modern world rather than focus on the past. What does it mean to be a millennial? Why does life happen all at once? How have we changed? Every melody is important, and words matter. ... more

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